Writing to winter: December 31st

Dear Winter,

It's New Year's Eve already 😱 This is going to be my last letter for the year and that's one scary thought. Things are so different right now to how they were twelve months ago. It's fantastic to have been able to spend the year with some people that mean the world to me and I hope that this continues into the new year. This Christmas time has been a lot better than I ever thought it would be even though I've been busy and spent a lot of the time working. 

I don't have much else to put into this letter Winter, but thank you for being part of this year! So Winter, here's to a brilliant new year! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to Winter: December 30th

Dear Winter,

Do you know what's really great about time off college? Playing silly board games like Cluedo and Rummikub without feeling like you've wasted too much time. Watching endless films and reading books and baking shortbread and just doing whatever the hell you fancy doing. 

I haven't quite done much of any of these things that I enjoy doing yet this time but that doesn't mean you shouldn't. In fact, quite the opposite. You should do absolutely whatever you fancy doing for a while because time isn't going to last forever. All of these small things matter because they make you happy but spending time over the holidays stressing about exams, assignments and coursework, you should keep that to a minimum because one day none of those things will matter and you might just wish that you spent a little bit more time enjoying yourself! 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 29th

Dear Winter,

I was up very early to swim this morning but thankfully I didn't have to spend all day in work afterwards. Although I didn't quite get back to sleep afterwards, I did have a fairly pleasant day with my family out shopping. Obviously there was the usual younger brother having a moan episodes and not everything was perfect but it was quite nice just to spend part of a day together, because it's usually net impossible to get us all day together for even five minutes. 

It was getting very cold again today. Not the sort of cold where you expect snow, the cold where you need to wrap up warm but feel a little silly with hat, gloves and a scary whilst the sun is shining. I'd quite like to see some more snow though Winter. Maybe not this year because this year is drawing to a close now but some point before you're over would be great. 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 28th

Dear Winter,

I rarely go out so don't be getting the impression that I'm some sort of party animal Winter but I had another work Christmas party today. I was quite excited which is unlike me but it didn't really go to plan...

Something I wasn't to excited for was the food, I really am not a fan of Chinese food at all. Even the plain things like rice so I ended up eating bananas and custard! But after about an hour and a half I ended up with a really awful migraine, caused by flashing icicles opposite me. 

Now I suffer from 'chronic migraines' so I can usually deal with them quite well but this was different. After the meal I was looking forward to a couple of drinks around different pubs and just having a good time. Possibly more importantly, everyone else wanted me to go and I don't like not being able to please people. But I think I did the right thing. 

Sometimes Winter, you have to put yourself first. It's important to take care of yourself. And what I had to do was go home, take a few Migralieve (which make minimal difference), sit in a dark room and have a drink of something pretty warm and sugary. I was still the same for 28 hours (78 is the record) but if I hadn't left early, if I'd stayed to please everyone else and not looked after myself, it would have been longer. Sometimes you have to do what if right Winter, even if it seems selfish.

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 27th

Dear Winter,

Back to work today and it was honestly quite enjoyable. The pool was practically empty all day and it actually gave me a bit of time to relax. With a flask of green tea. Staring at an empty pool. Either way I love it really! In my breaks I got a little bit of time to catch up on some college work that if been slacking with quite recently. 

I guess I'm quite lucky Winter; an enjoyable, well-paid and not too chaotic job. I don't have to work too many unsociable hours and even get paid extra for the odd ones that I do. But the fact that I'm working is scary Winter. I've been working for over 12 months now and it's only just hit me that it's showing I really am growing up scarily quickly. 

I have to do grown up things like check payslips are accurate, fill in time sheets and have long phone conversations with the tax office, HR and occupational health. All of these are things that you don't learn how to do in school or college. Maybe our education system does need to think about these things. It's all well and good teaching us about interview skills to get a job but that's only the first step. Once you have that job there are 1000 new things you need to do that you have no clue about Winter. But that's all a big adventure isn't it?

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to Winter: December 26th

Dear Winter,

The calm after the storm. That's what you're left with on Boxing Day. You've had a busy day, a couple of family tiffs, a little bit too much to eat and a lot of fun but you're left with a mess. The living room around here still looks like a bomb has hit it and given out presents because no one wants to move their gifts; it'd make them think it's over! 

But the calm after the storm is the best bit! You get to think about all of the great things you've just done and appreciate the memories you've made; spend more time with your family and friends before normality kicks back it. Because it will, oh it will Winter. 

And you brought us our first snow today Winter. At first I thought the few flakes weren't enough to stick or have any impact but the brief twenty minutes of snow we had did manage to stick leaving us with a soft blanket of white. It created such a nice atmosphere for a while but (unfortunately) you'd pretty much taken it away by the morning.

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 25th

Dear Winter,

You know you're getting older when your excitement about Christmas shifts Winter. Obviously I'm still 100% excited about the thought of getting up to a room sprinkled with magic just not as excited as others. Perhaps it was a little selfish of me to try and get an extra five minutes of sleep when my brother bounced into my bedroom with excitement at 5:30am but I had worked a long day on Christmas Eve! 

Then going downstairs, I didn't want to open my presents first. I was much more excited to be giving my family their presents and even more excited to see my sister's reaction to the presents I had chosen for her. For me the magic now comes from giving to others, seeing that they have a good day, that's enjoyment. And that's what has changed. It's not the big presents that I find exciting now, it's the small ones, the ones that say 'I know you so well'. Like the giant packet of post it notes and the endless supply of nail varnish!

Christmas was good for me. Better than last years by a long shot and do you know what Winter, I'm sure you'll bring an even better one next year. But for now I'm going to enjoy the rest of this one, because it's not over yet!

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 24th

Dear Winter,

It's Christmas Eve Winter, and I woke feeling really unchristmassy. I guess that's my own fault; being up for swimming at 5am then working straight through till 5pm in a place that isn't all that Christmassy. So to sort out my appauling attitude towards Christmas I found a CD player, a very Christmassy CD and made some mince pies and tiffin. But even taking all of those things people seemed to refuse that it's nearly Christmas until my shift ended. 

I came home to sort out the last bits and bobs: helped prepare the veg for Christmas dinner; tidied up a little bit and wrapped up the remaining presents. By that point I was sorted, my Christmas spirit was lit and I was exhausted, ready for bed! So that was my Christmas Eve, what did you do winter? 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to Winter: December 23rd

Dear Winter,

For me, any day in which I don't help others is a day wasted. I guess in some ways I thrive of helping others because I don't ever want anyone to be left struggling. But I also love the way that you can learn from others and help them to learn from themselves. 

During the Christmas period my burning desire to help others is strengthened. There are some people living in  appauling conditions meaning that they won't be able to completely enjoy Christmas this year. Whether it be down to a family crisis, illness, poverty or anything else, Christmas should be a happy and joyful time! So when I was told that over the Christmas period volunteers weren't expected to volunteer at the hospital I was a little saddened. I had a few chats with my boss and managed to change my days to suit the bank holidays that we have so went in today. 

At the hospital, it isn't suddenly any less busy just because it's Christmas, in fact, quite the contrary happens; the chaos is amplified. Being back there reminds me of my Christmas hospital fun a couple of years ago! But being able to help, to ease the load on others is just what I love doing. I'm going to keep being myself and help others right through the holidays Winter, and I hope you will do the same.

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 22nd

Dear Winter,

Today was the first day that I could properly just relax. I've been working all weekend but now it's the holidays so I have no commitment to leave my bed. That said, I still woke up at 7am and by eight o'clock I was already bored of doing nothing. In the end I went shopping to get the last bits we needed before Christmas and, if there's one thing to learn from that experience, don't do it again so close to Christmas!

ASDA was packed. I was beginning to feel sorry for sardines! People were trying to rush everywhere yet it was virtually at a standstill and what should have taken less than an hour ended up taking three. It wasn't great for anxiety reasons either; so many people pushing and shoving can start to make you feel a little bit overwhelmed. I then returned home to find a nice little list of chores that needed doing.

Oh Winter, I've come to the conclusion that I can't have a day of rest; it's not in my character at all. Every time I try to sit and relax or do nothing my mind wanders, finds me something to do and sooner or later I end up with five hundred thousand things to do. Tasks seem to follow me around and pat me on the shoulder when they need doing. But is that such a bad thing Winter? It annoys me a little bit but is it just a sign of being well disciplined, or is it being obsessive?

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 21st

Dear Winter,

I had way too much time to sit and think about everything and anything today. I was at work and lots of the children I teach didn't turn up so I sat with my book and did a bit of work but when I don't have too much to do my mind goes for a bit of a wander Winter. I was thinking about what I want to do in the future. I mean, I know that I want to be a maths teacher, but what do I really want to do and I realised that there's so much I want to do so I put together a little bucket list which will make an appearance another time.

One thing that I really want to do is learn; I never want to stop learning and I guess that's the reason I want to teach. Because I'll be constantly surrounded by people that I can learn from. It seems silly that you can learn from young children but you really can. Every time I teach I learn something new; about the world or about myself, it's different every time. People often underestimate the power of children Winter, but they shouldn't. Everyone has such a powerful mind and it's just plainly ignorant to believe that you can't learn from someone just because they're younger than you are. I want to take every opportunity to learn something new, wherever the knowledge comes from! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 20th

Dear Winter,

The best things in life are spontaneous aren't the my Winter. Today started off just as any normal Saturday morning; I got up early for training then, like a lot of Saturday's, I headed to work. I spent the morning teaching swimming lessons and then the afternoon as a leisure assisstant.  I knew that it was the day of the works Christmas party but wasn't too keen on the idea due to anxiety related issues. 

Half way through my shift someone called in saying that they were too ill (hungover) to go and they wanted to give their place to someone. So, after a lot of persuasion and promises from two lovely people that they'd look after me, I ended up agreeing and had an hour after my shift to get ready.

The night was eventful (bumping into my teachers on a night out and such) but, although I was slightly disappointed that my meal had already been ordered and it was stuff I didn't like (so I lived on carrot and swede, giving my food to others), I had one of the best nights of my life. In some ways I was so proud that I'd done something completely spontaneous and this has just shown me that unpredictable things can be fantastic and don't have to be scary. Winter, I need to learn to say yes to new experiences but I'm getting there, are you?

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 19th

Dear Winter,

Is it sad that I'm sad we've got two weeks away from college? I actually enjoy it so much more than I should! Maybe it's the routineness I like, or the safety net that it seems to form. I know that a rest is important and I am looking forward to that a little bit, but right now I don't really feel Christmassy enough to finish. 

It's strange isn't it Winter? The way you can go from hating a place to not wanting to leave. I know that sooner or later I'm going to have to leave my college but I've been a part of it for nearly seven years and I'm just not ready for it to be over yet. Each time we have a break I remember just how soon I will be leaving.

My last day of college for 2014 was great, filled with (mostly) my favourite lessons and in my frees I got a lot of things done that I needed to. I guess the next two weeks are going to be partly relaxing with plenty of catching up on TV and work. What will you be doing?

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 18th

Dear Winter,

Sometimes you have to say no Winter. There was so much I had to do today but I was also supposed to spend my afternoon doing something that I have a commitment too. I didn't have quite enough hours in the day Winter, and usually my answer to that is to stay up a bit later and squeeze it all in, but today I couldn't. I just couldn't.

Sometimes when you have to say no you feel like you've let everyone down but, in all honesty, they'll still be there when you're done. If you've done everything well up until now, one day off isn't going to make a difference. Winter you need to remember that you might have a commitment to them but you also have one to yourself. To look after yourself so that you can do the best for others to. 

Remember that no one is going to think less of you for putting something that is important to you first on one occasion. So do what you need to do Winter and those who care will understand why you had to do it.

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 17th

Dear Winter,

Well I've had fun today Winter. I was never going to turn down an offer to unleash my hidden childish side and watch the Penguins of Madagascar with the Brownie pack that I help out at. 

It was a Christmas treat for them and to see them all happy and laughing at something so small and simple really made me smile; it's true that smiles are contagious! And besides the ridiculous amount of toilet trips I had to assist, I had a fantastic time too! 

One thing I've learnt today is that you're never to old for a little bit of fun Winter. And if you can help someone out or make them smile while you're at it then even better! So say yes to a bit of childish fun Winter. Agree to make a snowman with the children down the road and spread a bit of Christmas cheer. Even if it's just to put a smile on someone else's face.

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 16th

Dear Winter,

It's normal to worry about things and get nervous. It's a completely natural feeling to want to do well at something and fear that you won't; especially if it's something that has the potential to dictate your future. 

Whatever you're worried or nervous about will not be there forever. In fact, I promise you that twelve months from now you will be wondering why on earth you were worrying about it. And the feeling when you realise that whatever it was has gone is fantastic. You'll feel so relieved so hold on to that thought and keep pushing on! 

Embrace however you're feeling; use it as a positive to work hard and hopefully succeed. But don't ever let anyone tell you that you shouldn't be nervous for something. If everyone was meant to think the same we'd all be the same person and were not! People can't control what you think, just like sometimes even you can't! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x 

Writing to winter: December 15th

Dear Winter,

I've just realised how negative the past few days seem to have been so I apologise. But sometimes writing honestly is necessary and a good way of expressing feelings without causing any damage. And the weather has been awful recently so if nothing else, let's call it pathetic fallacy! 

In fact, let's start with the weather. When you learn to see past the annoyance of being woken up by rain repeatedly every night for at least a week, theres actually something quite comforting to hear the rhythmical dancing of rain droplets on the rooftops. After a while even the huge gusts of wind are nothing more than a melody with the power of taking you away to anywhere. And once you realise that you've got enough coffee downstairs to keep you up until Christmas 2015, the fact that you've been in an extra hour or to becomes less important. 

Being up early brings me chance to think Winter, chance to do things that I rarely get chance to do. In fact, it's how I've managed to fit quite a few of your letters in. Sometimes it gets me thinking about the best things in the world but they're not always. Having time to gather your own thoughts, put them in order and work out how to deal with them is extremely important and Winter, I guess I've got you and your rain to thank for that! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 14th

Dear Winter, 

One of the best things about Christmas for me is the films. Not new films though; ones I've seen before. I've been a little bit busy up until now but I was thinking of a film before and a quote from it. It was 'Of course it is in your head. But why on earth should that mean it is not real?' And I'm not telling you what film Winter, you can work that bit out for yourself. 

It did get me thinking though. People don't always understand what's going on for other people. They can't and they won't. People fight battles every day. Some of these battles are obvious; physical battles and weaknesses. But other battles can't be seen; buried away inside someone's head or covered up so extremely well. But that doesn't make them any less real. Something that people often do is judge others without considering whatever is going on for them. People have reasons for their actions and the people you're judging certainly wouldn't be judging you if you were in their shoes. 

So next time Winter, before you watch someone play the judgement card, can 

you try to point them in the right direction? 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 13th

Dear Winter,

Oh Winter, I know we're not all the same person; we have conflicting views and opinions but that doesn't make anyone's opinion wrong. I just wish some people would realise that. 

I guess in some ways I'm very lucky. For a long time I didn't have a clue what I wanted to do in my life. And then I was in a position where I was torn between but right now I'm certain of what I want; nothing's going to stop me getting there. Not everyone is happy with my decision but that's exactly what it is. MY decision. And if I change my mind, so be it. You're entitled to your own dreams too.

What isn't acceptable is to try to change people's ambitions. To try to make people have lower ambitions just because yours are lower. Maybe one thing you should learn from this is don't ever tell me to drop out of college to suit what you want me to do for you. Because it's not happening. Trying to change that is only going to make you look silly! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 12th

Dear Winter,

Today is a day to thank people Winter. I've had a tough day but I've certainly received an unimaginable amount of help and support. When things get too much, sometimes you need someone to point out that you just need a break. And that's something extremely hard for me to do. 

So I'm going to thank a few people who have coped with me through all of the times when I haven't quite been myself. I'm also going to thank the one who forced me to have a break, I owe you big time and cannot thank you enough.

And Winter, I think sometimes just a quick cup of tea can help put things into perspective for you. So take some time to have a break today. Sometimes pressure can add up much quicker than you expect and you need to deal with that properly.

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to Winter: December 11th

Dear Winter,

For a while now I've been writing to you as if you're a person, but I've been wondering what sort of a person you are. Everyone seems to imagine you as an evil creature with an icy sharp tongue and a cold heart but I think they're wrong. 

They say that you bring the harsh weather, that you're a killer but that isn't true. Yes, the weather you bring is cold, and at times a little unbearable, but you provide the conditions to allow life again in the spring. And you provide a lovely environment for children to enjoy making snowmen and playing around in the snow. 

You're not horrible like everyone thinks. You've just been let down so many times that you've built tall walls and carved them into a couldn't-care-less exterior so that it doesn't happen again. To protect that previous heart of yours because it melts so easily. And I know all too well what it's like to build those walls up. You're such a strong-willed and independent person that you isolate yourself. Sometimes you need to learn to relax but you should never change, because your personality makes you who you are. 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 10th

Dear Winter,

Something that a lot of people have been asking recently is 'Are you okay?'. I know that when asking this they always mean the best but sometimes, people need to know when to stop. If you are repeatedly asking and making absolutely no progress, whoever insists that they are fine, maybe it's just that. They're fine and you're just making them question it themselves. And on the off chance that they're not fine, either (a) they don't have a clue themselves and they appreciate your support but also know where to find you if they need you, or (b) they have something that they want to say but not necessarily to you. Again, they appreciate your support but it's too difficult to say to you. 

I know it's hard to come to terms with but occasionally people just aren't ready to talk but it's okay. I know that I push people to talk too hard sometimes but my best advice for anyone who does the same is to take a step back, let them know that you're there and let them deal with things in their own way for a little bit.

Sorry that today's letter was a little bit ranty Winter.

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 9th

Dear Winter,

I'm doing a lot better with this than I thought I would! Nine days and I haven't missed a post yet though a couple have been a little late. I've decided to give myself until the end of the day after to post each letter to allow myself time to read over them and ensure that they are as close to perfect (grammatically) as I can get them! 

Today I want to ask you about ambitions Winter. First, I want you to think about what it is you want to do with your life. And then ask yourself if it's what YOU want to do or what someone else wants you to do. Because to succeed in something, YOU have to be committed to it, not your parents, friends, teachers or family.

You are the one who paves your life so work out what you want the overall outcome to be and then plan out how you are going to make that outcome possible. But remember one thing for me Winter, as long as you aren't letting yourself down, you can never let anyone down. Whatever you choose is okay so let no one tell you otherwise. And wanting to be happy is worth far more than being too ambitious or trying to please others.

Oh Winter, I want you to know that it's not selfish to do what you want to do. You need to live your own life and stop letting others live their lives through you, because that's not going to make you happy. Are you making the right steps towards your ambitions today Winter? 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to Winter: December 8th

Dear Winter,

You have to admit that Christmas is creeping up when you come home from college to be greeted by a little bit of Bublé, a fridge full of tiffin and you you can't even see the kitchen table for mince pies. Only nine college days left until I can relax for a little bit and, as much as I don't really enjoy relaxing like most people, I think I will be glad of the break.

Today has felt like one of the longest days of my life Winter. You had me up throwing hailstones against my bedroom all through the night and I just gave up on sleeping at around half five. But that's fine; and very character building! It gave me chance to get lots done so my day has been long but productive. 

Character building. An interesting choice of words I think and that's what I want to write to you about today. In life the average person will go through lots of things that they don't want and have to do lots of things that they don't want to do. But wise words from my swim coach have taught me that 'good people do well in the things that they want to but better people do well in the things that they don't'. Just some words for you to think about today Winter.

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 7th

Dear Winter,

I think today's letter isn't going to be As positive as soMe of our previous ones, but it's something I need to moan about and at the moment It looks like you're at the receiving end, so I apologise. 

Recently, I've heard lots of people telling others, who are struggling with Different things, quite bluntly to 'jUst stop'. Now I'm sorry, but somE things don't work like that. I know that A lot of the Time pEople are only trying to help and I'm so grateful of anyone who takes the time to do that, but sometimes saying things like 'just stop worrying' are like telling someone with an illness, let's use diabetes as an example, to 'just tell your pancreas to start working properly'. It isn't that simple; if it was don't you think the person has already thought about it? Maybe an improved alternative would be 'how can I help you to stop worrying as much?'. And 'it's all in your head' that's another favourite of mine. Just because it's in your head, that doesn't mean it isn't real.

Oh Winter, I think that sometimes people are so eXtremely naive to believe that they can understand everyone's story withouT walking a milE in their shoes. I guess I'M a victim of trying to do that but in reality not everybody can. And if you can't, that doesn't gIve you any right to belittLe there struggles or judge them because in Your life there will be a time when you appreciate exactly the same.

Sometimes people forget that when you come Winter, you bring time for helping others but I hope that this year, a few more people remember.

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 6th

Dear Winter,

The other day I told you that one of the main places that I write is in some sort of vehicle when I'm travelling. But I left you in a little bit of suspense over the second main place, which is coffee shops. For a long time I didn't like going out to anywhere like Costa or Starbucks for various reasons. But voluntary work at a hospital and some friends have educated me very well! 

It's such a lovely, relaxing and quite often a rare opportunity I get to just sit peacefully and enjoy a coffee but everything about the atmosphere makes me forget whatever is going on in the real world and take some time to enjoy something that I enjoy. Taking a notebook to jot down ideas for blog posts, stories and even a sketch pad to have a doodle enables me to have some time to myself. And it's important to have some time to yourself every now and again isn't it Winter? Not like on those early November days when we have to share you with Autumn; it's cold out but the crispy leaves are still freshly fallen from the trees. That's not time to yourself, and sometimes you just need a little break from sharing your time with everyone to refresh yourself. So, contrary to common belief, it is most certainly okay to spend time on your own! 

But other times I enjoy to sit and natter over a caramel latte in the cosy upstairs of my local Cafe Nero with one of my closest friends. We reminisce over memories, catch up with each other and plan the new memories that we'll make. It's taken a long time for me to be able to be even a little bit relaxed in public places  so I guess I've got lots of people to thank for that. And I have a new hobby now; trying every drink on the Christmas menus! 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 5th

Dear Winter, 

Today's been a long and busy day; so much to do but so little time, or at least that's how it felt! I've got exams, jobs and work all coming out of my ears and for a couple of minutes I even believed that I was driving myself crazy - before I realised that I'd done that years ago! I managed to cross off one of my many important tasks to do this month and feel pretty glad that I have. 

On the way home I decided to pick up a quick starbucks so made my usual order 'small salted caramel hot chocolate with soya milk' and was absolutely ecstatic when they gave me a large because they'd ran out of small AND medium paper cups! It was like a small reward for all of the work I've been putting into things at the moment and came at exactly the right time for me! 

I know that this is just a small example that shows good things do happen when you work hard. Like when you bring up snow Winter. It must take so much time and effort to gather the energy to give up that soft blanket of cotton wool, but when you do, you get to see so many children happy and playing. And that's when you get your reward! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 4th

Dear Winter, 

I'm not sure where today's letter is going to take us so I think we'll just have to roll with it if that's okay. 

So a lot of my random inspiration for posts comes from my surroundings; from people around me and from my experiences. But the times when I seem to get this written down well I am in one of two places. I'm only going to talk about one of those today, the other will come in good time, but the first one is when I'm travelling. I frequently write blog posts sat in the back of the car as a way of blocking out what's going on around me; it's a great escape strategy! I find that it helps time to pass super quickly and I feel like I've used my time kind of productively. 

But that's not quite what I want this letter to explore Winter. Recently, I've been taking driving lessons and even have my test booked! At first I really didn't want to start but now I'm kind of glad that I did because I love the feeling of freedom; the idea that very soon, I could take myself absolutely anywhere! I've already been lucky enough to see so many different places and cultures but I don't want to stop there. There are so many more places that I want to visit! 

I know it's hard for you because you've got such a strict routine to stick to but if you could go to anywhere that you haven't been Winter, where would it be? And where would you advise me to go? Sometimes I wonder if there's any point staying in one place when there's so much more to see. I know I'm a homebird and I'll always end up back in my own little village but what you do in between being where you're comfortable can really change the world if you do it well so with all of the freedom in the world, what would you do? 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 3rd

Dears Winter, 

You gave us our first proper frosty morning today. I was absolutely shocked to see the beautiful white layer of fairy dust or icing sugar all around as I left for college wrapped up nice and cosy by my coat, scarf and gloves. Obviously you managed to bring out my childish side; who can resit a smooth mirror of icy? I can't! So I guess I'm sorry to all of the children who walked up after me and missed out on smashing the ice. I'm sure you'll treat them to some more won't you Winter? After all, you've really only just begun! 

Is it exciting to start afresh every year, to have control of the world for just over three months? I bet it is! Or maybe a little tormenting. I guess you never really get to see the sun, or the bees buzzing through the trees. And you miss out on the long days and ice cream. But I think you get the most time to think. To work out who plays what role in the world and where some things are going wrong. Do you get jealous of the other seasons? Maybe you just appreciate what you have whilst you've got it. 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to winter: December 2nd

Dear Winter, 

It still feels a little bit early for this but I've got my Christmas decorations up! The Christmas tree fairy came to do it in the night as usual (yes, I am 17!) and I have to admit it's making me feel a little bit more festive. I've opened the first two doors on my advent calendar but there's 22 more to open, and that's a lot. It's a long time left in I think the next 22 days are going to be the busiest 22 days of my life so far. And I know it's not going to stop for good then but I should have a little bit of a break before I have to work my absolute hardest again in January.

I've got so many important (and a couple of exciting) things that I've got coming up but a lot of them are just scary things that I don't want to do but have to. I guess that's growing up for you! Isn't it funny that it's supposed to be the most relaxing time of the year yet I've got so much going on. No rest for the wicked, that's what they say! And even more ironically I set myself a little bit of a project to write to you every day this month. How am I going to manage that Winter? Oh I'll find a way, you can be very sure of that! 

I don't usually get too excited for Christmas and I don't think this year will be extremely different, and I'm not in any way wishing my time away, but it's quite nice to have something to look forward to at the end of it all. An opportunity to have a little break from reality for a while. But you don't get that do you Winter? You're here now, snook up on as and you're here for good. At least three months, and you don't get a break. But no ones chasing you away, it's nice that you come back every year full of new opportunities!

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Writing to Winter: December 1st

Dear Winter,

It's that time of year again. Right now I don't feel too festive yet but I can feel it in the air; the crisp, cool air that I actually don't mind spending time in. I'm always cold Winter, so your icy nature doesn't deter me too much! Walking down my street I can see some beautiful Christmas lights brightening up the neighbourhood; it just doesn't seem to be the right time for me to start thinking about Christmas yet, especially with all of the work I've got to do.

Since about September at work we've been counting down: three staff training sessions until Christmas! And today was our last one. Zero staff training sessions until Christmas so Winter, does that make it wrong that I don't feel ready for Christmas yet? 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Escape theory

Everyone has that one place that they take themselves to in their mind when things just aren't going right. I don't mean a bad place where all of the negative things you've ever thought about yourself just keep coming back. What I do mean is that one place where you feel 100% comfortable. The memory you'd go back to in a heartbeat if you could.

It's the place that gives you the hope and strength to keep pushing on, to look forwards and the place that reminds you of everything that you have to fight for. Telling you where my place is isn't going to help you find your own; you have to do that bit for yourself! But being able to have an escape when you need one is so comforting and just what you need when things aren't quite going your way. 

Sometimes I'll spend weeks at a time in this comfortable and happy place and others I won't need it for such a long time. But I know that if I need it, it'll still be there, in my mind and in my heart. Even if you only need a place to escape to for a few seconds to help you carry on there's always somewhere that you can go to that'll make everything okay; the real place might no longer exist but the metaphorical one, the one in your head, that still does. And that's my 'escape theory': that there's always a place for you to go when you need a break from the real world and all of life's problems just for a little while. So where is your escape theory destination? Tell me about it in the comments or just take a moment to think about it.

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Booktober: week 4

So you may or may not have noticed but these haven't quite been going up on time. I've been extremely busy with lots of things but mostly working on blog posts for the future so don't think I've been slacking; just been working on things that I'm not ready for you to read yet!

Book four of my Booktober is An Abundance of Katherines which is another of John Green's novels. And you should be pleased to know that I was a lot more impressed by this one! 

I was thoroughly gripped by this novel from the word go! It shows the story of a young man's journey to find love in the most perfect form. But he just doesn't seem to be having any luck at all. What makes it even funnier is that all thirteen of his attempts at a relationship involve a girl called Katherine. In fact, maybe that's what drew me to the novel. It gets to the point at which he's naming his past girlfriends as if they're members of the royal monarchy (Katherine the Second and Katherine VII). We are taken on a romantic (but a little bit cheesy) whirlwind adventure to meet all of the Katherines and learn where they all went wrong. And I guess I felt sorry for the protagonist on more than one occasion; I was practically begging the pages to let him have some success! 

I really enjoyed the humour in the novel as it made the novel a lot moreover a  lighthearted and enjoyable read. 

In fact, the only criticism I have is about the spelling of 'Katherine'. For all 13 of them! 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Booktober: week 3

So week three's book for 'Booktober' is Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green. So having read and enjoyed a lot of John Green's novels I was extremely excited to get started on this one!

The novel is written by two separate authors; odd numbers chapters written by one author and even by the other. As a way of differentiating between the two storylines, half of the chapters are written uncapitalised. And I think that is where my issues with the novel begin. I am the most extreme perfectionist that you will ever meet and this just aggravated my OCD but because I love the author so much I thought I'd persevere. 

Something about this novel was a little odd though. Usually I find it impossible to put down John Green's books but this time I found myself strangely drawn to the idea. Undoubtedly, the plot was interesting and it wasn't too confusing to follow. However, it just wasn't quite as gripping as I'm used to. 

In some ways I was gripped; I did want to know how it ended. However, I also found that it was a little predictable and written in a way that made it a little bit more monotonous that it could have been. 

In no way am I saying that the book is awful, it's just not quite as good I expected and it didn't live up to my expectations. But expectations are a bad thing. They lead you to be let down. So if anything, I'll let it be a lesson to me. A lesson that teaches me how setting high expectations leads to disappointment. 

I am so extremely apologetic about the post which is a lot more negative but these are only my opinions on the book. If you have anything you'd like to say about the book please do so in the comments below.

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Autumn

It's getting to that time of the year when I have to admit that things aren't going to be the same for ever. The bright summer days are all drawing to a close and, although we are still getting some beautiful sunsets, they're fewer and far between. All of the juicy green leaves on the trees have turned to a shade of golden brown. They've fallen to the ground and that's only a metaphor for everything that's going on around...

Times are changing, people are changing and it's scary. It's scary that what felt so strong has now been and gone. It's scary that people you were once so close to are now more distant that ever. But it's only when things are gone that you appreciate what you had and autumn makes me realise this. Understandably, things won't remain the same for ever; good things fall apart so that better things can fall together. 

And sometimes when you look outside on a crisp autumnal morning, you look straight through the blustery streets and past the fallen leaves to realise that there are some trees that still have those juicy green leaves. Those leaves will never change and likewise, some people in your life will never leave. Some things will always be a part of you. I've come to realise that I should be extremely thankful for the comfort of that thought.

It can be to remember that when good things are leaving your life, they're only making way for better things to enter. And YOU still have control. It's okay to want to hold on to the past but you'll always have the memories so it's okay to move on too!

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Only human

Something that I know I often do is push myself too hard; I expect myself to do things that I can't or don't have time for then get annoyed at myself when I make a mistake, don't get something done on time or don't get it done perfectly. And I think this may be something that you'll be able to identify with.

As human nature goes, we have a huge tendency to expect too much of ourselves and just be too hard on ourselves. This ends up wearing us out and breaking ourselves down. We agree to things in a desperate effort to please other people but at the end of the day, there's no way that you can ever please EVERYONE. There will always be someone who wanted you to be better, faster, smarter, stronger or more sociable. But you are you and your characteristics make that true! You're flaws, mistakes and the way you deal with them make you unique and perfect and don't let anyone every change them! 

The reason I'm writing this is to say that sometimes you need to accept that saying no to something is okay. If you don't have the relevant skills to do something or the time to do it well (or just need a break) that's okay. If you explain yourself absolutely no one can blame you for taking care of yourself every once in a while. If you're struggling with something it's okay to take a while to consider your options and work out what's best for you; don't feel like something's wrong because you can't figure out what you want right now. And you don't need to be hard on yourself for making mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes after all, we're only human! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x 

Booktober: week 2

This week I've been extremely busy and had so little time to relax or do anything that I really wanted to so I had every excuse not to read a full book this week. But I was not letting that stop me! You have to make time for the small things because sometimes they become the big, important things!

I was in work today on a break and decided that I'd read this week's book: Dead Time by Anne Cassidy. Cassidy is an author that I used to absolutely adore! Her stories have an enjoyable element of mystery and usually a very unpredictable ending which is what I love most. And I thought I'd read all of her books but was thrilled to find she'd relatively recently published a new series called The Murder Notebooks. Obviously I had to get hold of a copy of the first one as soon as possible! 

This book tells the story of not-quite step-siblings Rose and Josh who end up separated after their parents mysteriously go missing. The police insist that it was most likely murder but then close the case and the children are not convinced! They take matters into their own hands to try and discover the truth about what happened that night.

Dead Time was a fantastic read; definitely not a let down. I loved the way that different parts of the story were linked together and the way that mystery and suspense was created. This would definitely be a recommendation to others! 

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Booktober: week one

Ketchup Clouds. So this is where I started Booktober. I will admit that this book, by Annabel Pitcher, had been sat on my bedroom floor for quite some time but I've been extremely busy recently and struggled to find time to read. This was the fantastic opportunity to get me reading again!

What I didn't realise until after finishing the book is that she is the author of a book that I read a long time ago and thoroughly enjoyed! 

Ketchup Clouds tells the story of a teenage girl (who's name I'm not going to say because that's part of the mystery) who starts writing to a prisoner as a way to deal with her guilt. Her guilt as a result of an event that she blames herself for. We never hear from the convict, who is on death row, and the cliffhanger you are left on has you dreaming up all sorts of different endings.

Throughout the novel, there are several themes, both obvious and hidden, that manage to get you questioning things about your own life. It has you wondering how you would react in certain situations and teaches a very important lesson: sometimes letting go is the only thing that you can do to stop you making yourself crazy with guilt. 

If you don't mind reading something with quite serious underlying themes covered up quite well with the odd bit of humour, then this is certainly a book for you! The way family, friendships and feelings are portrayed is so unique and definitely worth trying to understand.

That's all for this weeks review because I don't want to ruin something that you might read but I look forward to hearing about what you're reading and I'll be back next week with another.

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Education: the right way?

The eduction cycle: school, college, university then a good job. It's that simple isn't it? Well, for me it is the right route. In fact, it's most probably the only sensible route into my chosen career. However, this is not the 'right way'. There is no right way when it comes to education and everyone's path is different.

Recently I've been thinking about what I could be doing if I wasn't in college and I know that there's nothing I want to be doing more but, for some people, it doesn't suit their personality. There are so many options nowadays that there is something for everyone and there is no excuse for someone to be forced into something that they don't want to do. Many of my friends who have chosen routes different to mine were unsure when following their dreams because they thought other people would think less of them for choosing a less conventional option. But what gives anyone the right to judge you for following your dreams? Why shouldn't you be able to do a degree in English, Geography or Sport science? Do an apprenticeship or drop out of college to get a job? If you are taking the next step that is right for you, where is the problem?

I guess what I'm trying to do is spread the message that as long as YOU are happy with what you're doing, why shouldn't anyone else be? Why should you have to do something to fit in with convention or to satisfy someone else? I've spent a long time trying to please other people but know now that it's me who has to live my life, and I should do it the way that I want to! So next time you feel like you're not going the right way just because it's not the most common, take a moment to think twice!

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

Why I do bother!

Recently, a few things have happened to me that have had me asking the same thing repeatedly: 'Why do I bother?' And I just thought it would be a good idea to write about it; to give you advice and to help me when I find I'm thinking like this in the future.  

Okay so this has happened a few times to me...

I always (and I mean always) try to be super nice to other people. I guess I just like to think I'm either improving someone's day or keeping the world a happy place. However, more than once, I've tried my hardest to include people that otherwise would have been completely ignored by everyone, just to have it thrown back in my face! After trying particularly hard with one person it really annoyed me to find out that they'd started spreading lies about me behind my back. 

Now, what makes it worse is that this person doesn't know me but, most of all, it is NEVER right to do this. To make someone feel awful is wrong. To spread lies about someone you barely know, someone who tried their hardest to make you feel included and help you out doesn't really encourage them to do it again, does it? 

After I'd heard the things that'd been said I was quite upset but, not only that, I'd lost all confidence in myself. I started to worry and panic then wondered how I should treat her next time I see her. But then I realised something. It's not in my character to treat her any differently. I would feel even worse if I started to treat her differently.

There could be any number of reasons for her saying the things she did. None of those things make her actions justifiable but they could make them slightly more understandable and I guess it's better to forgive but not forget than to let on to her.

Some wise words from Atticus Finch 'Before I can live with other people, I have to live with myself' helped me to learn that I should concern myself with my own actions before I bother about anyone else's!

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

Booktober

I am a very big fan of Carrie Fletcher who, in case you didn't know, is quite a well-known Youtuber amongst other things. She created 'Booktober' a couple of years ago and basically the idea is to read a new book each week in October. This year I wanted to give it a go! 

I will be reading a new book each week (because I'm a little bookworm!) but I'm doing things a little bit differently! I'm going to write a blog post each week so coming back for a quick review about what I've been reading as well as recommendations! 

Keep smiling, 

Kathryn x

It's just a work in progress

Since this is mostly a private blog and only two people know me outside of the Internet, I feel that I can be completely honest about things and I guess I wanted to write a blog that displayed the message 'It's okay to not be okay'

In the not so distant past I have been through quite a few personal issues but the details of these aren't the important part. At first, it took me a long time to accept that anything was wrong and reaching out for help was probably one of the hardest things that I have ever done. And from there nothing got any easier. I've had many things to tackle; thoughts and feelings that I didn't feel strong enough to fight. But I came out of the other end. Dragged out kicking and screaming at first, but out is out. 

More recently I have been wondering how I know when I'm actually 'better'. Is it the moment that you decide you want to live differently? The moment you reach out for help? Or is it when you've had help? Just because you've had some 'help' does that automatically constitute as being fixed? Because that doesn't seem to make sense to me. How can you be better because someone else decides you've had enough help? So I stopped and thought about it a little bit harder. Maybe you're better when you decide that you want to be. Or maybe not. 

I was asked recently, by one person who has been helping right from the moment things came out, if things were going okay. I knew exactly what was meant by 'things' and how supportive she's still being completely baffles me. I'm pretty sure I don't deserve it. But that day the reply I managed to find was 'I think so' because I didn't know. I didn't know what constituted for 'okay'. I didn't know how to define it but it seems that I didn't need to. The reply I got was 'That's good! Everything's just a work in progress'

And that's the answer to my question. It took someone on the outside to answer it for me. It's just a work in progress. Nothing's ever changed instantaneously, at least, nothing that's worth changing. And that's okay. There will always be good days and bad days but, most importantly, on those bad days there WILL always be someone who wants to help if you reach out. I'm always will to help! Bad days are completely normal and OKAY! No one is perfect all of the time, everyone has flaws and their own personal battles to face. They make us all unique and some things stay with us forever but that doesn't mean we have to let them define us.

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x

100 questions that no one ever asks tag

Recently I've been really enjoying this sort of blog. It's so great to allow you to get to know me a little bit better and it would be nice if you'd like to leave a comment if there's anything you agree with or disagree with. Hope you don't find it boring!

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? 

Closed. I cannot sleep with doors open!

2. Do you take the shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

Well I do if they're nice, if they're not what's the point? I do, however, make a habit of taking whatever biscuits and tea bags they have! Vanilla Chai tea bags are the best

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? 

My bed is wedged into the corner or my room with one side next to the wall so that side is tucked in. The other side is left out so half and half

4. Have you stolen a street sign before? 

What? Is there even a valid reason for doing this?

5. Do you like to use post-it notes?

I love post-it notes! I have a small obsession with stationary and pretty much anything that can be used for organisation. And I have a nice little colour-coding system for different types of tasks and their importance

6. Do you cut out coupons but never use them? 

To be honest I don't ever use coupons but I don't cut them out either so no

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?

Hmmm, I'm thinking the bear but I'm not sure. I'm not really a fan of conflict of any sort so I'd hope it was someone dressed up as a big bear to give me a big bear hug 

8. Do you have freckles?

Yes, a lot! I sometimes made jokes that one day all of my freckles will join up and I'll look permanently tanned 

9. Do you always smile for pictures? 

I try at least; I've got the worst smile going. Just very unphotogenic 

10. What is your biggest pet peeve?

I shouldn't admit to this but I have quite a lot. In fact, I'm going to struggle to pick one. Maybe when people leave a door open part way. Close it properly or leave it fully open, is it so hard? Or people watching me eat. Please, is it really necessary?

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

Yes, I'm not sure why though; I always lose count. Maybe it's just the comfort that numbers never change when everyone and everything around me is

12. Have you peed in the woods?

I have done. You learn that it's not too much of a terrible thing after D of E! I lasted through bronze and silver but at gold you go away for a week

13. Have you ever pooped in the woods?

I have not 

14.  Do you ever dance even if there's  no music playing?

All the time

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? 

I do, unless they're borrowed

16. How many people have you slept with this week? 

Do teddy bears count?

17. What size is your bed?

Just a single

18. What is your song of the week? 

Oooh, good question. I listen to so much music but none of it will really interest you. Right now I'm enjoying James Blunt's 'Carry You Home'. I know it's quite old but I'm entitled to my own music choice, just as you are :)

19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? 

Yes, they can wear whatever they like just like I'd want to. I don't like pink so don't wear it but wouldn't want to be.

20. Do you still watch cartoons? 

I didn't ever watch cartoons. Just not a fan.

21. Whats your least favorite movie? To be honest I don't watch too many movies. But one film that I don't particularly like is Twilight. I think the book was great but the film was a little bit of a let down

22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?  

Now if I told you it wouldn't be hidden would it

23. What do you drink with dinner? 

I'm very fussy about what I eat and drink and at dinner it's just water

24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? 

I just don't eat chicken nuggets. Like I said, a VERY fussy eater!

25. What is your favorite food? 

Carrot. Sticks of carrot. I'm sure I must have been a rabbit in a previous life

26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? 

All of the Harry Potter's and Mamma Mia

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you? 

Probably my mum

28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

We don't have Girl Scouts here but I was a Rainbow, Brownie, Guide and now I'm a Young Leader

29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? 

I wouldn't even pose fully clothed. I absolutely hate photographs and what I look like

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? 

Yesterday. I love writing letters. So much nicer than sending an email.

31. Can you change the oil on a car?

Nope

32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? 

I don't even drive yet!

33. Ever ran out of gas? 

SEE ABOVE!

34. Favorite kind of sandwich?

Okay I'm not the biggest fan of sandwiches but I do like a good cheese and tomato toastie. If it has to be a sandwich though, I only like Warburtons Sandwich Thins so it would be one of those with cheese, salad and sweet chilli sauce  

35. Best thing to eat for breakfast? 

I don't like eating breakfast. I physically can't eat before I swim in a morning but I've started forcing myself to on a college morning. So I don't mind banana in yoghurt or Nature Valley bars. And that's it.

36. What is your usual bedtime? 

It depends. Some days I only get in from swimming at ten but as sad as this is, I try to be in bed by ten when I can. I'm a morning person.

37. Are you lazy? 

I certainly hope not!

38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? 

Usually some variety of witch

39 What is your Chinese astrological sign? 

Absolutely no idea

40. How many languages can you speak? 

That depends on how you define speak. I speak English obviously, then I've studied Spanish for 9 years so know enough for most things and I know just about enough Turkish to get by if I need to

41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

I don't

42. Which are better legos or lincoln logs? 

I'm going to have to say Lego on the basis of 'What are Lincoln Ligs?'

43. Are you stubborn? 

I try not to be and don't think so but its probably better to ask someone else

44. Who is better…Leno or Letterman? 

Who or who?

45. Ever watch soap operas? 

Nah, I waste my time watching The Great British Bake Off. Unless you count Waterloo Road, Casualty or Holby City but they're dramas really

46. Are you afraid of heights? 

Nope

47. Do you sing in the car? 

I sing everywhere 

48. Do you sing in the shower? 

I said EVERYWHERE 

49. Do you dance in the car? 

I like to dance but is there really enough room in the car?

50. Ever used a gun?

Actually, yes. Yes I have. Scared yet?

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 

Probably my last school photo which was 12 months ago. Unless you count the school photographer, in which case it was Wednesday for the college council

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? 

Some are and some aren't but I do love musicals

53. Is Christmas stressful?

Yes, but it's usually close to worth it

54. Ever eat a pierogi? 

I don't know what that is but I'll assume not. I'm such a fussy eater so it's unlikely 

55. Favourite type of fruit pie? 

Cherry or rhubarb (but not together!)

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Doctor, lawyer, journalist, writer, blogger/youtuber (hmmmm) and (the one that I haven't grown out of) a maths teacher

57. Do you believe in ghosts? 

Sometimes I like to but I'm not sure

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 

Once

59. Take a vitamin daily? 

Yes, which sucks but I guess it's important for me

60. Wear slippers? 

I prefer slipper socks

61. Wear a bath robe? 

Dressing gown? I do, but only when it's very cold

62. What do you wear to bed? 

Pyjamas!

63. First concert?  

Not been yet! Please someone change that ;)

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? 

Where, where or where? I'll assume they're the American equivalent of ASDA

65. Nike or Adidas? 

It depends what for but usually Nike

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

I don't eat crisps; really don't like them

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 

Both! Finally found something I do eat

68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? 

Yeah

69. Ever take dance lessons? 

From the age of two to fifteen: ballet, tap, modern, jazz, disco, street, cheerleading

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?  

Not really, I don't mind as long as he's happy

71. Can you curl your tongue? 

Yes

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

We don't have them but I think I might be able to. Everyone comes to me for spellings 

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 

Yes, a few times but usually at work

74. Own any record albums? 

I do. ABBA and Bon Jovi

75. Own a record player? 

Again, yes I do!

76. Regularly burn incense?

I don't but I forever burn candles. My salted caramel Yankee candle is nearly finished :(

77. Ever been in love? 

I'm not sure

78. Who would you like to see in concert? 

Imagine Dragons, Demi Lovato, Gabrielle Aplin, Amy MacDonald. I could go on...

79. What was the last concert you saw? I've not :(

80. Hot tea or cold tea? 

Hot green tea with lemon

81. Tea or coffee? 

Both but if I had to choose I'd go with coffee

82. Sugar or snickerdoodles?

Neither

83. Can you swim well? 

I'm a competitive swimmer who swims for fifteen hours a week, a lifeguard, coach and teacher so I'd like to think so

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 

Yes

85. Are you patient? 

I really do try to be

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? 

DJ I think but I've never really thought about it

87. Ever won a contest? 

Yes, I've won odd things like creative writing competitions and a bookmark designing competition. I was such a cool kid

88. Ever have plastic surgery? 

Nope

89. Which are better black or green olives? 

Eewwww! Neither

90. Can you knit or crochet? 

Nope, my grandma tried to teach me but I don't have very good hand eye coordination 

91. Best room for a fireplace? 

Bedroom or living room 

92. Do you want to get married? 

Yes

93. If married, how long have you been married?

I'm not married

94. Who was your HS crush? 

Why would I answer that?

95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? 

Nope, I know it's not the solution

96. Do you have kids? 

No

97. Do you want kids? 

Yes, but I'd also like to foster or adopt

98. What's your favorite color? 

Purple!

99. Do you miss anyone right now? 

Yes

100. Who do you tag?

I tag my wonderful Nutmeg megangoodier.blogspot.co.uk

Hope this has helped you to get to know me a little bit better! And until next time...

Keep smiling,

Kathryn x